Solo delusions

You can try ignore it
Try not to absorb it
But baby it’s a fact

You are loved
Your role in life’s important
You have signed a pact

Can’t live in a bubble
Only causes trouble
As much as you want solo

It doesn’t work that way
We’re all wishing you to stay
Cries aloud of YOLO

While you’re here
We want you near
To be connected and okay

We love you

Jigsaw puzzle

Delusional
Also quite unusual
You’re a mixed up mess
A jigsaw puzzle so complex
Unsolvable more or less


All the pieces accounted for
But just can’t make them fit
Rearranged and analysed
Lost a little bit


Can you see the picture
On the back of the box
Of how things should appear
So aspirational
Insatiable
Just out of reach I fear
Your vision’s not so clear


But give it time
It’ll fall in line
Once your eyesight’s better


You have someone to help clear your view
If you’d only let her

Am I a fool?

Am I a fool?

Crying on my birthday
Waiting for you to call
Feeling overlooked
No crumbs at all

Said you needed time
Alone and no ties to hold
So no birthday wish for me
Feel left out in the cold

Turning 40, feeling a child
Not sure how to feel
Up and down hopeful then lost
Trapped in a spinning wheel

I feel hurt and sad but can’t tell you that
It’s technically not your fault
You need time and I want to give it to you
But I don’t know what to do.

Stuck between giving you what you need,
To the detriment of my own.
What I need, you can’t give me that.
So inevitably I’m alone.

New Year’s Kiss

15 years today
Clean shaven
Moppy hair
New year’s kiss
You’re the boy I choose to miss.
A golden smile
A complex brain
I would do it all again.
My eyes are open
I’ve been asleep
You’re the boy I choose to keep.
Naive I was, expected much,
Assumed in advance
Never gave you a chance
Overlooked your gifts
I stood in your way
Now one wish,
That you choose to stay.
15 years and I finally learnt
To build a fire
Wood must get burnt
I want to grow from this
Evolve renew
A new perspective
More mindful of you
With new eyes,
This trajectory is set.
Our love hasn’t started yet.

We are only atoms

Everything from nature is imperfect.
Yet we expect more?
More from others, situations and ourselves.
Perfectly fallible.
Made from a dna stew.
Experiencing and experimenting,
That’s all we have.
So why expect perfection?
Lauding logic,
Yet live in fantasy.
We do our best.
Be gentle with yourself and others.
We are only atoms.

Save some space for me.

Emotionally independent
But spiritually entwined.
You are not my all,
But you’re etched into my mind.

I will keep you safe
I will let you free,
Explore, experience,
Solitude is yours,
Even here with me.

I will guard your right
To experience this world.
The good the bad the ugly,
Answers to unfurl.

The pace is yours,
I trust in you,
I will learn to be.
Fill your soul
With what you need,
Just save space for me.

My biggest fear

My biggest fear,
will you even want me near?

You go away to find yourself
While I sit here, upon the shelf.

Life is easy on your own,
High and mighty on your throne.
Do what you want, no expectations,
No ball and chain, no limitations.
I understand yes that’s a life of ease,
No chance for failure, no one to please.
But what for challenge, or companionship?
Combining love with an adventurous trip?
Learning to live with a queen by your side,
Someone to drift with you amongst strong tides.
A partner in crime to devulge your secrets,
to push and prod and test your wits.

Yes solitude may seem the one,
But next to me, it’s much more fun.
I wont set limits or hold you back,
in fact I’ll push you, don’t be slack!
So find your road and forge ahead
Let’s not give up until we’re dead.

Life is crazy, life is free,
Just please do it all with me!